Capture your grief - Day 22 - Self care

Capture your grief
Day 22 - Self care
Just be, just be how you feel on that day, take baby steps, take it easy, just breathe and just be however you want or need to be. ...
For me my self care is letting whatever I feel each day...just be....don't hide from it, don't be fake about it, don't always feel you have to mask it up your allowed to feel and do whatever is right for you. No one else knows what you need, only you.
So be kind your self & take care
Sunshine always helps for self care

 

Capture your grief - Day 21 - Relationship

Capture your grief
Day 21 - Relationship
From the day we found out I was pregnant our relationship formed with our baby, it grew and grew each day and week along with Kyla growing in my belly. ...
We would talk to her & sing to her, see her developing on all the scans, we started that amazing relationship between parent and child.
Even though Kyla isn't here with us, it doesn't mean our relationship isn't there, it is and it always will be, its just in a VERY different way.

 

Capture your grief - Day 20 - Breathe

Day 20 - Breathe

Breathing its simple right?
After Kyla I didn't k now what was happening, everyday I struggled to breath properly, my chest felt like it was caving in & it was like I couldn't get enough air....
I thought something was wrong with me.
Anxiety...that's what was happening to me, it started straight away, I just didn't know what is was.
So even breathing became difficult, I had to learn breathing techniques, to help me, sounds silly hey!
Inhale, exhale how hard can that be.
But now I know when you suffer from anxiety its hard, it can happened anytime, anywhere.

Inhale....Exhale...Inhale....Exhale....

Capture your grief - Day 19 - Give

Capture your grief

Day 19 - Give

All I want to give is knowledge to pregnant women on Group B strep, so they have the knowledge and the choice to request a test!
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Group B Streptococcus, or Streptococcus agalactiae, is a type of bacteria that is naturally found in the digestive tract and birth canal in up to 1 in 4 pregnant women. Unfortunately, babies can be infected by GBS before birth and up to about 6 months of age due to their underdeveloped immune systems.

I don't want anyone else to have to suffer the loss of a perfect baby when such a simple test could possibly pick up the GBS and they get the antibiotic's during labour that are needed to protect baby.
At the moment all I can do is give advise and give people the knowledge I now have on GBS.

http://www.groupbstrepinternational.org/what-is-group-b-strep/

http://gbss.org.uk/what-is-gbs/for-pregnant-women/

Capture your grief - Day 18 Gratitude

Capture your grief
Day 18 - Gratitude
Forever I will be thankful to my little girl. I wish so much that I could change things and have you here with me and your daddy, but I'm so very thankful that I held you every step of your life, I'm so thankful that you held on somehow for those precious 16 hours and that I got to kiss your face, and hold you into me, and be your mummy....
Through this heartache you gave me so much more than I could ever have asked for.
I'm forever thankful to you Kyla, my daughter.
You have changed me in so many ways & showed my the true meaning of being a mummy and that pure love a parent has for their child, I am so proud & thankful that you choose me to be your mummy X

 

Capture your grief - Day 17 Explore

Capture your grief

Day 17 - Explore

I choose this picture as it captures my world now.....I have no option but to explore my grief which I am now learning isn't always such a bad thing.
Its what I have to do, I have to explore into this... unknown place which at the moment is my world, I'm grieving, every second, every minute & every hour of every day.
And through exploring my grief, I'm exploring myself and my new world, its all changed, the exploring is very hard but its made me explore so many different things and so many different people and this part of the exploring has helped & is helping me through my journey of grief for my beautiful angel

 

 

 

Capture your grief Day 15 & 16

Capture your grief

Day 15 - Community
Day 16 - Retreat

Community - This is where I'm so thankful for social sites! ...
Through social sites I have come across quite a few support groups for bereaved parents. These special community's are a great support for us angel mummy's & I'll be forever grateful that they are here for us.
Especially Sands!! I have met some amazing people thanks to Sands and now have some great support.

Retreat - In all honesty my home is my retreat, for me loosing Kyla especially in the beginning made me afraid of the world, to me it had all changed & it became a scary place, some where I didn't want to be.
My home is my place where I feel safe, I can feel and be how I want to be, I didn't have to confront my fears off the outside world.
Now in the following months I'm in a bot of a different place and the outside world isn't as scary, but my home is my retreat, my place, where I can retreat to & just be.