We are getting out & about but its hard, its so hard, you see babies, pregnant ladies, happy families & to be honest its crushes us.
How do you carry on when your world has been turned upside down, we expected to be so happy & doing amazing things with the most precious little girl but its all changed we lost you & we feel so lost.
Today is going to be hard, we cant move on in the slightest as we still don't know the final COD, we have to go to the hospital today to meet with the clinical director & head of midwifery to go through the whole thing again, to help with the investigation, should they not know all this by now....we understand things take time but really this is just destroying us more, we want to know what happened & pray to god no one was at fault & it was a tragic event that happened the hypoxia (that kills me as well but...), how do we deal with this if they say our midwife was at fault or the hospital?? Hard days ahead baby girl & me & daddy have to be strong for you & we will find the strength somewhere, somehow.
Mummy & Daddy hold you tight everyday, you sit at night & watch over us & you sit with us in the day, we hope you like the teddy that is now where you lay :-(
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